Stress!

As you know I spent all day going through baby clothes on Saturday. His room has been a huge mess since I started that project. I have empty rubber maid containers on the floor and a couple of full ones that need to find a space in the closet to call home... There are clean clothes all over the place just waiting for me to find the matching pants to and there's jackets that need to be hung up. I also have to hang these two star shaped hooks up on the wall.

At least I got rid of a lot though. The closet is no where near bare... but there is room for some toys Dru doesn't use much any more.

Earlier when I started working on the room I left Dru in the living room to play. I got up to check on him after a short bit and he was eating dirt! Yep, there is dirt in my living room. I left the balcony door open since it is a nice day out (but the screen door closed!!) and it exposed a little bit of dirt in the doorway. You know how sliding screen doors can be kind of hard to keep clean..... (Ok, I admit- I think I have swept it clean once.) It was really gross too. Dru's mouth was brown! I felt bad. But he's ok.

anyways- back to work!

My Kid's a Star on YouTube

I am going to start posting all my Baby Dru videos on YouTube since it loads a ton faster there. There are three new videos I haven't had on Myspace. Check them out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4m8WPZeVwcU

That's the link to my favorite video :) But I'm sure you can navigate your way to my "channel". I'll post quite often btw. I Still have a few to post from these last couple months. Oh, Yea, & COMMENT ON THE VIDEOS!

I cut Dru's hair yesterday. I trimmed it was a buzz trimmer. It was sooo hard to do. He could hear it buzzing behind him and kept turning his head. It looks good though! (If you have ever done hair before- I used a 2 on the sides and a 5 on top.) Afterwards, just like at the salon, I brushed him clean and then spiked it up. Then today I gave him a mohawk.

Before


After

102.8 Degrees

Dru has a fever. It is his first fever. I feel terrible for him. He's screaming right now. I can't handle it. I had to just put him in his crib and let him cry it out. Ok, he already quit screaming. That's good. I held him for a little bit and walked around with him for a short while. He isn't taking his bottle right now. I am not caving and nursing him though. If he isn't taking his bottle then I'm taking that as he is not hungry. Not that he wants to be nursed instead.

I hope he starts to feel better soon. I hate to see that sad face. It tears me up. I also have to work tonight. I don't want to leave him.

First Day

Yesterday was the first day I didn't nurse Dru once. It was hard. I do feel a little distant from him. I missed him being in my arms. I tried to hold him and have him play on my lap, but the little energetic booger showed fairly quickly he would rather be on the floor crawling around. I don't really know what to do now. Should I nurse him late tonight to ease my Playboy status boobies I got going on right now... or should I pump a little so that I won't be hurting in a few hours? I just don't know.

But I will tell you that making him a bottle, laying him in his crib and having him feed himself is awesome! It cuts my time getting ready in half. I would nurse him for 15 to 20 minutes then get ready, but now while he's having his bottle I am doing my hair and brushing my teeth. It's so simple! I am glad he got the nutrition he needed from me for the last 11 months, but I am so relieved for him to be feeding himself now.

Weaning A Baby

I attempted to wean Dru from the BOOB back in September. I got down to three nursings a day. I thought I was doing great until he got sick and would no longer take his bottle. I was nursing him 4 times a day last week. I kinda quit cold turkey. Yesterday I only nursed him twice and today only once. I know that this isn't how you're supposed to do it, but it's how it has happened. He's taking the bottle really well. Solids too.

But right now he has a bad case of dry skin on his back and he has a diaper rash. He's woken up twice tonight. Billy hasn't taken the baby for a visit since Monday, and I am kinda going insane. The hour and a half I had tonight between Dru waking up I tried to sleep. I just tossed and turned though.

It's been a rough night. I'm gonna try to go to bed again now.

Pictures

Dru had an appointment to get Holiday pictures taken on Monday. I couldn't do it though. I got really stressed out. It was terrible. I cried and left. He had pictures taken back in June and it was terrible too. I thought it was because of all of my nephews being there. I thought maybe it was only stressful because there were five boys to control. Nope, it's stressful no matter who or how many kiddos are under that bright light. I don't think I will ever attempt to get pictures taken again. I'm sorry folks. No pictures for you!

He did it!

Yesterday Dru pulled himself up on his feet a million times. I got it on video too :) It's cute. His crib is broken so the side doesn't go up on it like it should. The other side doesn't go down. So, I had a brilliant idea to turn it around. We had to do that yesterday so the little man can't climb out! ha! It looks funny, but it works.

Yay!

New Dru Stuff

For a good month now Dru has been pulling himself up on things but staying on his knees. Well, today he had one knee on the floor and one foot flat. He tried, but he didn't quite make it all the way to both feet. I would say he'll prolly master it by his 1st birthday. Which isn't that far from now if you folks recall!

I can not tell you how much I am anticipating January 31st, 2009 ! It's even better than looking forward to the due date like I had done all of last year. Because ---- pardon me --- but I ain't getting ripped a new one this time! Yay!


My baby boy is gonna be a whole year old. And you all thought I was crazy cuz I threw the kid a HALF-BIRTHDAY party. You guys haven't seen a thing. This is going to be huge!

Dru is funny

I just gave the little guy a whole piece of bread and he has eaten it all! Good lil guy! Now he's chowing down on snacks....
Billy said he pulled up onto his feet yesterday! Yay! I was at the tanning place dangit- I missed it! Billy also had the baby while I went out last night. I picked him up at 12:30 am! Ugh. I really wish Billy would get his own apartment and a playpen so that the baby can sleep over with him. I felt a little bad for our baby boy having to wake up in the middle of the night. Two nights in a row too. I took him with me for that 5 am trip to office depot yesterday! He's gonna sleep good tonight though. I won't be waking him up tonight.

Anyways- I can't wait to blog about last night! So- I'm off to my other blog now!

This time last November, what was your love life like?
Pretty good. I had fallen in love with a little baby Dru I was cookin' up in my belly :)


Last person to make you laugh?
DRU... I rearranged the living room and when he crawled in the room he had the funniest look on his face.

Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
I have no bad mood today.

Do you think you are an argumentative person?
I KNOW I am an argumentative person

Skittles or Starburst?
Neither... gimmie some sweettarts

Do you wash your hair in the shower?
I actually didn't today.

How was last night?
Made good $$ at work and we to bed pretty early

If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean?
It means I am thinking too much.

How are you feeling right now?
Good. A little stressed. I haven't done my essay yet and a rough draft is due by midnight.

Last time you laughed?
Earlier- the Dru thing

Last nap?
Oooo Wednesday

Excited about anything?
Yep, I am gonna go see a movie tonight. First movie date in almost a year

Who were the first 2 people you heard this morning?
Just the one little Dru-ski

What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Too many to name off

Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Stupid people that don't know how to tip.

What are you listening to right now?
It is completely silent

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Heck yea, but unfortunately the one who I would have celebrated the last TWO with didn't beleive in celebrating them. :(

Have you ever stayed in a hotel?
Once. I was in Colorado.

Where would you like to be right now?
I am good where I am


Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms?
as long as I don't have to work during one- yep!

Would you tell a stranger if they had spinach in their teeth?
If we were having a conversation- sure. Y not?

If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
The adoption process is sooo hard... I doubt they would gimmie one haha

When playing truth or dare, which do you choose?
I feel like I am 10 yrs old... but... dare!

Ever open a bag of chips in the grocery store and eat them before paying?
Hell yes. I usually open a coke or a smoothie... sometimes candy and always gerridelli... and gum :)


Are you easy to get along with?
Not at all. It takes a strong man and great friends to put up my my bullshit. Sorry!

If someone paid you 1,000 dollars to get their name tattooed on you would you?
yes I could really use a thousand dollars right now.


If you saw a wealthy looking person drop a 100 dollar bill, would you return it to them?
Nope. Finders keepers... actually- I would return it if someone saw that I saw who dropped it. I don't want to look like an asshole.

Would you want your future children to date someone like you as a teenager?
No way. Live and learn

If you went completely broke would you consider prostitution?
NO! Plus, no one has that kind of money. My lady parts would cost millions

Has someone ever promised you they would never hurt you?
YEP.... It's a line ladies, never beleive them

Does anyone hate you?
I don't know. Maybe

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
I have an awesomeness about me that keeps them coming back... I don't need to chase after nobody

Little Dru-ski

Is napping right now. I have no idea why though. He slept 14 hours last night and didn't wake up until 11. When he woke up I nursed him, but he got sick :( Poor little guy. He was really difficult all day yesterday. He was getting into everything and I would just pick him up and take him into another room. Only for him to turn right back around and crawl back to whatever he was getting into. I even had to put the fake tree out on the balcony. He was pulling stuff out of the base of it and eating it. He had to crawl under the kitchen table to get to the fake tree so every time I had to go get him I had to squeeze under it too. He did it about a dozen times. Drove me crazy. Then he kept going to my cd wall after the tree was gone and pulling the cds down. Anyways- I just had a rough Baby Dru day yesterday and when he woke up and threw up all over me.... Can't have two bad baby days in a row- I just called Billy since it is his day off. He will take the baby and I will chill out.

After the baby went down for bed last night I had a good night though ;) I ended a stressful day perfectly.

The Search Is Over

That is right folks, the daycare search is over. I shopped for my last daycare today. A place called New Horizons. It was a new building- I liked how the rooms looked. I walked in and the Director introduced herself and told me she would be a minute. One minute turned into ten and I watched my surroundings. I had a baby room to my right and one just ahead of me. Throughout the entire ten minutes I was waiting the lady in the room to my right did not say a single word to any of the children. I was kind of looking forward to my child being socialized while in daycare :( The room ahead of my had a half door. I could see the top of a crib from my sitting postition. When it started to move I wondered why it was moving. Sure enough a baby had tried to pull himself up and the crib fell on top of him. It gets worse- The caretaker in that room said to the injured child, "Well, you're the one who dumped the crib on top of yourself." Ugh! I wasn't happy. I wanted to just walk out, but I went ahead and let the woman give me the tour. During the tour I told her what all I witnessed. She showed me both the rooms that I wouldn't ever want my son staying and then a third room. In that room there was a young girl playing games with the kids and another girl feeding, talking to and holding a tiny baby. I loved that room. I asked the woman if I was to bring Dru there could I pick the room. She said no and that it would depend on where the openings were. And of course, the openings were in the two rooms I witnessed hell in. No daycare for Dru. He is going to stay home with me and I don't care if I get evicted haha! I give up. I'll just work more nights when Billy can take Dru.

Not a good day.

A vote and a half for McCain please

I had to take Dru with me to the Church to vote today. Everyone fell in love with him. He sat in his stroller for an entire hour before getting fussy. Surprised everyone- especially me. There was a woman behind me that held him while I placed my vote. We share last names too. Except she is a Mrs. There was an asian couple in front of me that were playing with Dru a lot. The Asian lady was tiny- I mean really tiny. She played with Dru's "piggies." Even sang him a song in another language. (Probably Vietnamese.) He liked everyone too. Until we entered the church doors. We waited about an hour outside and then 20 minutes inside in line. The 20 minutes was the hard part, but everyone was trying to entertain him. All the conversations around me were about where people lived and homeschooling and sports. Not a single one was about the election. Weird huh? I shared with the couple in front of me and the Mrs. Baker behind me that it was my first time to vote. Then they shared who they had voted for in their first elections. (all republicans btw) I was getting a little discouraged because most of my family and my friends are voting Obama. I kinda feared I was going to suffer from the wasted vote syndrome, but at the polling site everyone was pretty much voting for McCain. (We are on the north side- It makes sense.)

and MAN! I wish my last name started with an M-Z - That line wasn't even half the length of the A-L ! Bummer!

Daycare!!!

Ugh! I can not find a friggin daycare. I went to a couple places in Edmond today. One I didn't like so much. Just the women who worked there also could look like women I worked with at a truck stop way back in the day. White-trashy :( Plus, it was kinda far for me. 10 miles away. There was one that was half the distance and I fell in love with it. It was amazing. BUT the tuition is $1,010 ! OMG! That is crazy- and they don't accept assistance from DHS. Hell no! I really liked that place, too. Shoulda known.

The first place the ladies were really talkative and shared numerous horror stories of home day cares. So, immediately after leaving I called the two I had appointments with. There are waiting lists for the centers right by my home, but there are no openings until January and March! May not be too far for me though. I plan on paying the rent for Dec and Jan with my student loans. I don't really have to get a second job until then I guess.

Ok gotta go, Doctor app in 45 mn.

Ok Day

Dru went to his Mother's Day out program today. He didn't eat for them :( He ate for me though tonight. He had some spooned baby food and then a bunch of pringles. Like a half a dozen. He loves them! Billy has come over every day so far to see him. Has been late in the day until today. Today he stopped by between work and class. Tomorrow is his day off so he will either stay here or take Dru to his mom's while I run errands. I have to go get a debit card for my student loans and then look for a job. I didn't know what I was going to do about the bills but luckily I did some searching on my credit card websites and increased my limit. Tomorrow I am going to go stock up on all the things I will need around the house so just in case I don't have $$ later I won't have to worry about being out of shampoo, diapers or toilet paper.
I always get myself out of the holes I dig. Always.

I slept really good the first night alone. Last night not so good and tonight is not so good. I don't think Dru has even noticed a change around here though.

Better day!

So, Dru had half a jar of sweet peas and a few french fries at Mcdonalds today! Yay! Much better than before. He had some of my chicken too, but he didn't like it much. I think it's pretty seasoned. Man, we have played SO much today- I haven't turned on the TV once. We usually hang out in the living room all day, but today we played in my bedroom and his. Well, in his bedroom he played and I updated his baby book.

He's been up on his knees crawling like a pro for about two weeks now. For the last week he hasn't hardly done his army crawl.
Let me tell you- It is hard to keep up with him now. He's a little escape artist. He also knows when he's getting to something I'm gonna keep him from. He makes eye contact and then BAM! He's gunning for it! Whatever it is! And if he knows we're coming for him he starts to laugh. Unfortunatly he's not coordinated enough for the fast crawl yet so he usually bites the dust, but I'm already on my way so I catch him.

Right now he's trying to master his sippy cup. Apple juice is getting all over the floor. I must go now!

The Laughing Boy

I got this crazy baby boy that laughs TOO MUCH! Ha ha, there is actually no such thing, but it has happened just this past two days. I'm a big fan of watching videos on YouTube tagged with "cute babies" or "funny babies". Most of them are babies laughing hysterically. I thought to myself, man it takes Dru a little more than that to get a belly laugh out of him. But this past few days he has been a laughing machine.
Some things that get him rolling on the floor are:

*Mommy bobbing her head "like an Egyptian"
*Ozzy chasing the cat around the room
*Any type of anticipation. Like when he knows we're about to "get him"!
*& When we tickle him of course.

It's cute! I love it- we're having more fun than we used to and it's great.

I got his Halloween costume today. It's a Mouse! It comes with a big belly too. Way cute- we tried it on in the dressing room and everything. He screamed the whole time though. (He wasn't a happy boy. We had been shopping for a while- Tired)

We also went to the doctor yesterday. He's 18.4 lbs and 28 inches. This woman in line behind us at Ross shared with me that her 6 month old is 20 lbs at 24 inches. Now that's a chubby boy! Ha ha. She was a nice woman- Dru was being a cranky butt so I handed him something I wasn't planning on buying. (It was a red box with jewelry in it. Perfectly shakable toy to distract him from the fact I could not hold him and pay at the check out counter at the same time.) She and her friend distracted him from the box while I put it back up. He is not a nice baby to be around when something gets taken form him.

So, the doctor thinks he may suffer from "Breastfeeding Starvation". It's a condition where the baby doesn't want anything but breast milk and the breast milk can't keep up. Baby won't take a bottle or take solids very well. (That's him!) It's frustrating. In the next week and a half Doc told me to try really hard to get him to eat foods and if he doesn't put on any weight we will have to start weaning him! Basically force him to take a bottle and solids. That just sounds like a lot of stress to me. We did have a few pieces of string cheese and a little bit of sweet peas. He didn't even have a quarter of the jar though. The woman in Ross said her son has two jars of baby food a day. : ( It's really hard to get him to take it. I tickle him and make him laugh so that his mouth will open and then I shove the spoon in really quick! Not fair- other babies just open their mouths because they want to!) Ugh.

Anyways- I think I'm going to bed now!

Dru is an evil baby

I think I am being punished by the baby gods. The baby gods that control the temperment of little ones day in and day out.

Dru has started a new thing.

He cries EVERY SINGLE TIME he is put down. And not only does one have to hold him, but also walk around at the same time. When my nephew Bryce was Dru's age he did it too. That's actually when I started to babysit him. I swore that day if I ever had children I wouldn't let it get to that point. I never wanted a needy baby. Even last week when he was sick- he enjoyed being held, but if I put him down he would let me. Now he screams like someone pulled his hair or pinched him. It's an aweful sound. This has been happening for three nights now.

He woke up at 2:15 am. (2 Hours ago.)

and I can't go back to sleep. He screamed for about 45 minutes off and on. I would go in make sure he was ok. It's the saddest thing, but the books say let him cry it out.

hehehe This is what the search came up with for "Evil Baby" on PhotoBucket
.... it works though

Poor little sick boy Part II

Last night after I went to bed I still kept missing my baby boy. I decided to go check on him. When I went into his room he was sitting up in his crib wide awake. I picked him up and held him close just like I had wanted to for the past hour.... and he vomitted all over me. Talk about some mother's intuition.

We immediatly took a bath together, kicked Billy out of my bed and then Dru and I snuggled up close. He fell asleep pretty quickly but woke many times throughout the night. I had given him more pedialite while we were in the tub, but I still worried about him not getting enough fluids. This morning I attempted to nurse him again, he had about half the amount he usually does. His diaper was completely dry when he woke up too. Bad sign. So, I doubled up n the pedialite a half an hour later. He hates it, and I hate forcing him to take it.

Afterwards, we snuggled on the couch and watched "Little Vampire" on cable. (I just want to mention that he never cuddles so much. When a healthy baby Dru is held close when he wants to play or be down on the floor he wiggles and squirms his way down and out of anyones arms.) But for the last 24 hours he has been in our arms pretty much the whole time. Although I hate for him to be feeling so sick- I sure do enjoy all this lovin' I'm gettin' from my baby boy.

About an hour ago he started to rub his eyes. (Even though he hadn't been awake for long). I layed down with him again in my bed again. He was moaning : ( I started to tell him a story and the moaning stopped. I just thought off the top of my head about the day Billy and I met 2 years and 5 days ago. I summed up the whole back story in less than 5 minutes and by the end of it he had already konked out. It was really sweet. And that's where he is now. Sleeping soundly. I really hope he doesn't get sick again. I left the door open so I can hear him though.



Pray for my sick little one.

Poor little sick boy

Normally Dru is nursed four times, has two bottles, a couple dozen "cherry puffs" and a jar of baby food.

Today he has only had two nursings and a bottle. He's really sick. It's so sad. But the little trooper still seems to be happy. Billy and I took turns holding him tonight.



He snuggled up close to each of us making sweet little baby sounds. He was tired so we got extra sweet baby time. He went down for bed an hour and a half early too. Currently, he is sound asleep. I hope he wakes up soon. Writing about him makes me miss him. I want him to sleep with us tonight.
Last time I hoped he would wake up it was because I searched on YouTube "cute babies"... Then I watched a bunch of videos and missed my own baby so much I prayed that he would wake up so I could love on him. Sure enough I heard him rolling around in his crib less then 15 minutes later.

But if he does sleep sound until the morning I hope I have a sweet Baby Dru Dream. Those are always awesome! haha Good night readers.

O yea, btw since he didn't eat very good today we did give him some pedialite. So, don't worry too much about him getting dehydrated.

Someday

There are a lot of things that I have always wanted to do. Voice lessons and guitar lessons are a couple of them. In highschool my dad took care of drum lessons. That was a lot of fun. Unfortunatly, I'm an independent adult now and daddy doesn't buy me stuff anymore. I can only look forward to finshing school and finally being able to afford the hobbies I have wanted to start. It's four years away, but guess what else we will have in four years....

A four year old lil boy who will be my buddy and go with me to guitar lessons and voice lessons! I wonder if I'll have to buy him a special tiny guitar?

Daycare ROCKS!

So, when I got back to the day care to pick him up there was a little blue bear cut out to match all the others with names on them... Sarah, Max, Lilly...

and now there is an ANDRU! He is apart of a "class" and it is adorable. It's so cute. I am so proud.

They said he didn't get fussy at all. He also took his entire bottle. (I poked the nipple with a safety pin a million times. It should be easier for him now.)
They gave me a sheet that they fill out every day. Says how many wet and dirty diapers he had and when he went down for a nap. Whether he had a bottle or a snack- or both. It's so nice! The ladies were really nice, too.

I got a bunch of homework done in that time and then I went and did some shopping. We needed computer paper and a new shower rack thingy. Oh yea, and then I went to Braums and had my first fast food burger in 8 months. Oops- Never again!

Dang it! O well, good day- I deserved it!

We have to schedule lunch sometime...

Man, this kid is just been so busy this week. Me and him has got to schedule lunch sometime to be able to catch up!
So, earlier this week I noticed two cut teeth on his left side to make his four baby teeth into 6. Well, todayI noticed another one on the left top. So, booger's got 7 teefers. He sat up all by himself... went from belly to knees then to his bottom with no help from his mama. TODAY he said "Mama"... 4 times! And then again earlier this week I tried something new with him- I held his hands above his head and we "walked" together. He did it too. He walked! (With help, though- but still) & He loves it. He was just as surprised as I was to find that he could do it. He laughed and squealed. I thought to myself though, 'I wonder how long he has been able to do this and I have just never tried it before!'

Tonight (since Mindi wouldn't watch him we had to take him along! haha just kidding) we went to a bunch of places checking out all the Baby's First Halloween costumes we could find. I liked the Bat, the Rat and a baby elephant ones. Then we went to Souper Salad. He was a good boy the whole time despite his runny nose and red eyes. : ( I fed him a couple of pieces of a mushroom and let him play with a plastic straw wrapper. Which made this lady come over and ask us if we knew he was playing with it.
Yes, I knew. I gave it to him. Bad Mommy! (We had left his toy in the car parked in front of Old Navy!) Not winning any awards this year...........

Had such a good day! And a great week of accomplishments! Walkin', talkin', little toof growin' baby o mine.


o yea, and then we got his first day of Mother's Day Out tomorrow! Wish us luck... wonder what I am going to do with 5 whole hours to myself- other than homework of course.

Woo hoo 'nother one!

So, Dru sat up all by himself tonight! He was up on all fours then put one foot in front of him, shifted his weight back then was sitting up- all alone. I gasped and ran over to him hugged on him and loved on him.

And he's really close to saying mama. I'll say it to him and he'll laugh- every time. Sometimes he'll move his mouth to do an M sound but then won't put voice to it. We're close though- I can feel it.


And then today was a friend's baby shower. Having a little girl. She's going to be one spoiled lil tot. Riley Anne. I did my usual painting... everyone loved it. All those cute lil girl's clothes were killing me. I want a little girl of my own. And Dru wants a little sister.

: ) O well... We can wait.

I don't think I am ready

So, last week I called a Mother's Day Out program. It's this beautiful church on Memorial. I have been there a few times to deliver some group pizzas. They always tip really well and every one's really nice. So, I called them to get Dru on a waiting list. Christy put Mason on a waiting list for a day care and it took like 6 months! So, I figured that would give me plenty of time to make sure he's got the bottle thing down pat and such.
Well, they called me back today and there is currently no wait for his class.

: ( I don't think i am ready. But I know he is- So, we're gonna check it out on Monday and if I like it then he will start on Wednesday. He will only go Wednesdays. 9:15 am - 2:15 pm. It's not much- just gives me a chance to get some school work done in that time... or run to wal-mart baby-less. There are a lot of things I need to do that I can do in that time. I just hope I don't get tempted to sleep during that time. That's a very me thing to do.

Wednesday's the perfect day to do it too. Billy works and then goes to school so I usually am about ready to cry by the end of the day if Dru has been fussy.


I guess I am kinda excited. I warned her on the phone I would probably cry though when I dropped him off the first few times!

Dru is ....

Dru is feeding himself! Yay! So, I started practicing every day with him to take his bottle and sit at his highchair. (It's really frustrating to do this every single day- he never really ate that much from a spoon and he acted like we were killing him when we gave him a bottle!) BUT!!! Today I gave him a new food. Cherry Puffs! And he was picking them up like he knew how to do this all along and was actually making it to his mouth. I put down 18 of them on his tray and only 3 were in his seat when I picked him up. (I fed a lot of them to him, but he was picking quite a few of them up himself.)

AND He has had a five ounce bottle every day for about a week! Yay... we are well on our way to a more independent Baby Dru!

Milestone!!!

Dru. Is. Crawling.

There is no stopping a hungry man.

We had a wonderful pool party at Billy's mom's yesterday. Chowed down on yummy taco salad and I finally got to try Mary's Pina Colada. (The last time she made it, I was pregnant- no Pina Coladas for me!)

Dru swam with me and played in his turtle floaty. It was cute. I waited an extra long time to nurse him since I had that drink, and by the time I was ready he was uh, extra ready...
I sat him on my lap, facing me and I tried to get my top to cooperate with me. As soon as one of my tatas was exposed- he lunged at me like it had been a million years since he was nursed! Before I knew it he was latched on and there was nothing I could do. He was still sitting up and facing me! He had his tiny little hands on both sides of the tata... it was odd.

Billy came in and started laughing, "What is he doing?" I had to explain to him that the impatient little boy simply saw dinner and didn't care what position I had him in for it.

Oops. Sorry kid.

Bad mommy alert, CAUTION Bad mommy alert!

I caught Dru chewing and sucking on a receipt yesterday. Half of it was gone. I jokingly said aloud, "Somebody got a lil fiber in their diet today!"

A few hours later... I found the rest of the receipt. You couldn't read what was written on it anymore.

......It was in his diaper!

EW!!!! It was a gas receipt from 7-11. I guess that's how Dru really feels about gas prices these days. He chews it up and poops it out!!!! EW! It was pretty amazing actually. It was still a piece of paper. Not even crinkled up.

What an impressive kid, huh?

It's true

"I love my child more than anything in the world. If an angel came from heaven and asked me if I'd die this moment to ensure that my child have a long and happy life I'd be dead with a handshake."

-Jessica Gottlieb

First time for everything!

So, I never thought something so amazing would ever go down in a Chuck E. Cheese boothe, hidden in the corner.


I nursed Dru in public for the very first time! (What were you thinking happened in there!)

It wasn't that bad. Only one curious kid stopped and peaked around the car seat. Ha ha! And who would have thought it would happen again so soon. I nursed him in the fitting room at Target today while waiting for my one hour photo.


Oh, man and GET THIS! So, I have had three people ask me in the past if Dru was my son. I was thinking, 'OK, do we not look alike?' or 'do I look too young to have a kid?' even 'do I have babysitter stamped on my forehead or something?'
I finally asked "WHY!"

..... and the Hibdons guy said, "You look really good! Too good to have a small baby like that!" I was like, "YAY!!! I'm skinny! hahahahah!"
Everyone needs to hear that shit after having a baby, man!

After that, I treated myself to some Taco Bell. I earned it. So, it was a gloomy day and there was no one in the drive thru line so I made small talk with the seemingly bored drive thru guy. It could have been considered flirting, but I wasn't trying or anything.

and he called me "Gorgeous!" That day was MY DAY!

Now listening to "ONE HOT MAMA" By Trace Atkins!!!!

So... close...

Man, Dru is all over the floor. He rolls around and he scoots. You put a toy anywhere in the room and he'll get to it in any way except for crawl. He's getting so close to it though!!! He can get up on his knees and he'll wiggle around. But he won't really go forward. He's been scooting backwards on his back with his feet for over a month now. They say that's the first step. Cuz they're bending their knees and such. I guess he's practicing the motion (Just upside down)But I can feel it coming. Every time I set a toy in front of him on the floor I feel the urge to get the camera cuz this might be the time!I'm just so proud.

He's getting soooo big!

My six month old baby boy has FOUR teeth and can sit up all by himself! By that way since my last entry he started sitting up alone... and those teefers came in since then, too. Wow huh?

Happy half-birthday Baby Dru!

So, my precious lil man is a whole half of a year! It is truly amazing how much he has changed. The way he looks, behaves and gets around. He break dances! haha- When put on the floor he'll do a complete 360. Whether he is on his belly or back. He is really close to being able to crawl. He will scoot and he will push himself with his toes. He grabs for everything- including my hair! He's like a claw machine. Sometimes he drops his toys on the floor. In which case, I will bend down and holding him close to his toy and he picks it up. CLAW MACHINE! Ha ha.
He has a favorite toy now. Baby Ogre. You know from Shrek? He can be getting fussy and bored playing with toys, but the second he sees Baby Ogre coming his way he lights up. He kisses him and sucks on the little patch of red hair on the top of the stuffed animal's head.
In the beginning of the summer when I would take him down to the pool he would mellow out. Just chill in the water. Now he splashes and smiles and expresses that he's having fun. And everyone loves him down their. Like I said, he's charming.
He smiles out of the blue a lot. Used to we had to try really hard to get him to smile. Now he laughs a lot and smiles at virtually nothing. I can be writing something down and when I look over he's giving me a toothy grin.
Oh yea, and he has two teeth now! First tooth June 26th, second tooth was on July 3rd! Now he's chewing on his fingers with his side gums... I think that's where the next tooth will be.

I just love him so much. I can't believe it's already been a whole 6 months. I love him. It is amazing to be able to watch him grow like this. He gets excited now when he sees certain people. I love it when I get home from somewhere and he starts kicking his little legs and squealing for me. He also holds his arms out for me. He clings when I have him up close. Wraps his arms around me when I'm kissing on him. When he wakes up in the morning and sees my face for the the first time in hours- Man, the look and smile he gives me... it is the most beautiful thing in the world and no matter how old he gets I will never forget that face.

Ah, I love him.

Jan. 31st, 2008

I woke up in pain at about 9 o'clock am. Initially, I thought something was wrong, but when the pain subsided every now and then I felt okay about it. My back was a nightmare for the last few weeks anyway. I decided to call my doctor just to be sure. As soon as I said the words, "It only hurts for a little bit, then the pain goes away, but then it hurts again..." I felt like an idiot. The nurse laughed, then told me to head up to the hospital because, of course, I was in labor! In my defense, HEY, it was my first time! I put on one of my boyfriends t-shirts and my pajama pants, grabbed my bag, woke the said boyfriend up, and started to freak out. The pain was debilitating about every four minutes. The temperature was in the sixties and the sun had been out all week. So, I decided to just wear my slippers. As soon as we had all of our hospital stay needs together we started for the door. It was snowing. The roads were icy and the temperature was freezing. Of course, the baby had to come on a day like that. I later found that was only the beginning of how difficult this child was going to be. I begged my boyfriend to not take the highway. I am very much a worst case scenario type person. If something bad is going to happen I think it's always going to happen to me. That day, I was afraid of sliding off the highway on the icy roads, and then delivering my baby with only the boyfriend and NO drugs to administer the ripping of the new one. To tell the truth, as soon as my doctor told me in the middle of July that my due date was in January that was my worst fear. As soon as Billy got the car parked and joined me inside, together, we found the birth center. The lady at the desk asked, "How can I help you." Excited because it was finally time, I said, "I think we're having a baby." She quickly congratulated me then got down to business. She showed me where to go to. It was called a "triage". There, I waited in pain, while the nurses made sure I was truly in labor. Which only means they watch you suffer and "check you" every now and then. (The checking part hurt worse than the actual birth.) During that time I cussed at Billy when he tried to speak to me, concentrated on nothing, and listened to some ghetto girl talk on the phone behind a curtain in the same room. Luckily, that hell only lasted and hour and a half. A nurse soon came in announced that I was at four centimeters, and ready for drugs! I gathered my things and tried to keep my ass from hanging out of my gown while I walked to another room. Little did I know, that would be the room I would have my baby just 9 hours later. It was then time to call everyone. Even though we forgot The List, we got everyone called, and THEY ALL showed up by 6 o'clock. There were about twenty people in my hospital room filing in and filing out every time a nurse thought it was time to "check me". Which didn't hurt anymore, because I had gotten my beautiful drugs... The guy who administer my epidural was quite a hottie. I wish I had shaved my legs that day. Oh, well. Only joking, Billy, I love you. Just before giving me the epidural he told me of all the risks. I worried a little when I heard you could lose the ability to go to the bathroom ... Forever. I also worried after the fact when I couldn't move my left leg for 15 hours. Anyways- At that point my nephew, Bobby 8 years old, reminded me that I owed him 10 dollars every few minutes, and I wondered how long you had to lay on a bed to get bed sores. I was going on 7 hours, but I guess I sleep longer than that. But not in the same position. Around 9 o'clock it was time to get 'em out. Everyone but my sister Beth, daddy Billy, and his momma Cindy left the room. I pushed for about an hour and a half then I felt an odd lack of pressure. Then, I heard him. He sounded like my favorite song. They put him on my chest just like in the movies. He was nice to look at, but I didn't want to touch him 'til they cleaned him off. Yes, I loved my son from the second I saw him, but that doesn't mean I wanted to touch him with the ick all over him. I really wanted to kiss him, but I was patient. They took him to a corner of the room to test him. Make sure we made a great baby that could breathe on his own, and demonstrate good reflexes. I later heard my step-mother told someone at the door of my room that she "forgot her jacket." That would explain why she appeared in the room all of a sudden so she could see the baby, while the doc was .... well... While, okay, it was personal. I didn't want anyone in there! Sneaky woman! After his first bath, which Billy took a million pictures of, they brought him back to me so I could nurse him for the very first time. He took to it amazingly, while the nurse told me I had perfect nipples. I wasn't sure if I should thank her, but I didn't think anyone would give me such a compliment again. So, I didn't want to miss the opportunity. I thanked her. I always knew I had a nice pair. ; ) After that first bonding experience, I didn't want to let him out of my sight. I didn't take a shower, I didn't offer for anyone to hold him. (If they asked, I let them.) I didn't let the nurses take him at night so I could sleep. I didn't need sleep, I had my baby! I was uneasy every time a nurse needed to take him out of my room for a test or a shot. ; ) I kept thinking, 'Now that he's here, I'm never letting him go!' Should have named him Jack. Ha ha When it came time to leave the hospital Billy had to work, so his dad and Debbie drove me and the baby home. They stayed while I took my first shower in four days. Not joking, I was pretty stinky. Being at home was nice, but I all of a sudden felt lost. There was no longer a nurse to buzz when he cried. Although there was a little extension of me right there, I felt very alone. During my hospital stay I was only alone for maybe a couple hours. Someone stayed with me pretty much the whole time. Don't know what I would have done if they hadn't. Things got better though. After a while I no longer looked like I had no idea what I was doing, and things even got a little easier. Today 14 weeks later, I feel like a pro. It's really hard some days, but when he does something for the first time or when he smiles back at me, I know it's all worth the time, energy, and tears I have shed.... I love him so much sometimes I cry when I think about him. In a good way. Ha ha An amazing way.